But God! is a raw and unfiltered testimony of survival, accountability, and spiritual transformation. In this deeply personal memoir, Kalin Courtney takes readers through the darkest seasons of her life, revealing the painful realities of trauma, family conflict, manipulation, addiction, financial instability, and the emotional wounds that shaped her decisions for years. Rather than hiding the parts of her story that many would bury in shame, Kalin confronts them with honesty, exposing the consequences of choices made in desperation, pride, and brokenness. Each chapter peels back another layer of her journey, showing how unresolved pain and a longing for validation led her into situations that left her feeling lost, ashamed, and spiritually disconnected.
As the story unfolds, readers witness a powerful turning point in Kalin’s life when God begins to intervene in ways she could no longer ignore. Through scripture, prayer, and divine encounters that challenged her thinking, she begins to recognize that even her most painful experiences were not wasted. The moment that changes everything occurs on September 15, 2022, when a profound spiritual awakening through Deuteronomy 28 forces her to confront both the promises and the consequences laid out in God’s Word. In that moment, she chooses full surrender, leaving behind destructive habits and committing to obedience, faith, and purpose.
But God! is more than a memoir of mistakes and redemption. It is a testimony of God’s relentless love and His ability to transform even the most broken seasons into purpose. Kalin shares how faith does not eliminate trials but equips believers with the strength to endure them, reminding readers that God often allows adversity to refine character, strengthen faith, and prepare individuals for the calling on their lives.
Through vulnerability, scripture, and bold reflection, this book speaks directly to anyone who has felt disqualified by their past, trapped in cycles of poor decisions, or distant from God. Kalin’s story serves as a reminder that no mistake is too great for redemption, no secret too dark for healing, and no life too broken for God to restore. Her journey ultimately declares one powerful truth that echoes through every chapter: when life seems beyond repair, God can step in, rewrite the story, and turn devastation into destiny.
Because sometimes the only explanation for survival, healing, and purpose is simply this, But God!